Its been awhile! I hit the 50 pound mark 2 weeks ago and then last week for the 2nd time on this journey; I gained weight. I gained 3.2 pounds last week. Although I was disappointed, I new it would happen because of my choices. But this week I lost 5.6 pounds to put my total weight loss at 52.6......YEAH!
This is the last week of play rehearsals as the play is next weekend! Then I will be fully back on track with a well rounded plan. I have found it really hard not to have a strong support system. But, I guess if I had the support system; I probably wouldn't reach out anyway. I find it much easier to write down what I am feeling and what is really going on. I think because I don't have to listen to anyone tell me what I am doing wrong....because I already know!
The other day, one my my colleagues said she was going to challenge me. I said, "OK"! She said, "When someone gives you a compliment, say THANK YOU and smile." I guess that is really hard for me to do. Because someone can tell me I look really good and I want to say, "Are you frickin kidding me.....I am still severely obese!" I do try to smile. I know that what I have done already is a huge step in the right direction on my journey. I lost over 50 pounds! I have not exercised consistently and very minimally the last month. It really goes to prove that what you eat really matters. So back to the challenge. I am going to work on just saying Thank You and smiling! I do appreciate when people tell me good things!
Speaking of the play....I am having a blast! It is so much fun with the cast (Bonnie, Paula and Don) and with Char and Nancy! If anyone really needs a good belly laugh you need to come and see the play next weekend! I really enjoy doing this! I like to pretend to be someone else! Like my bumper sticker says; some days all I want to be is a missing person! I am afraid that maybe my kids would miss me:)
I am going to talk a little about family! Last weekend one of my nieces told me that forgiveness is the way to go. I had a great time visiting with 3 of my nieces (Danielle, Kayla, Bailey) and great niece (Brya) and sister, Jill and mom! This week I said a lot of prayers.....prayers of forgiving myself for being so judgmental! Life is too short! Anyway.....I really miss my sister! Not going into any details; but the other day I was thinking; who am I going to make Christmas cookies with? Ela asked me the same thing; since Aunt Joy won't be around we won't have any Christmas cookies! That sunk in! I had a feeling of sadness! My favorite time of year and I have really enjoyed the last few years when we have made that a tradition! Why do we have such strong emotions when we get older? Why can't we forgive and forget in our later years; when we know how much life matters and how short it is? It sucks to be so strong headed! Thanks mom and dad for that one!
Well, good luck tonight to my Vikings......take the Bears down!
Until Next Time, PEACE OUT!
I have missed you as well, more than you know. So many times I wanted to call, just to hear your voice. We will have to see what happens in the next few weeks, with regards to the cookies. And you look GREAT.. you're welcome! Keep on, keeping on. Until next time, Love you!
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