Giving up on myself! I QUIT making excuses for everything.....I QUIT not taking care of myself....I just QUIT!
Sure glad I got that out of the way!
I lost the weight that I had gained last week. I lost 3.3 pounds this week! That puts me at a total weight loss of 33.1 pounds since my journey began at Fitness North on June 5th! This week went well....I was able to get my workouts in everyday; even in Green Bay on Saturday....I woke my butt up at 5:30 am and went to the gym.....It has gotten a lot easier to eat; although there are times when I look at the clock and think, DAMN....I am over an hour late for eating (or "my feeding" as Leif always called them). But I eat anyway. I know the importance of not skipping!
I am home alone this week with Jacek so things should go even more smoothly. Well, probably not...I am going to be running him all over green acres!
I believe I will be going back to the doctor as my symptoms have not subsided any! Thinking about that really pisses me off. I thought to myself the other day that maybe I always had whatever is going on in my stomach but with all of the fat and adipose tissue there, I couldn't feel anything. I have really tried to make myself believe that it is just muscles...but my brain is telling me otherwise. Keep your fingers crossed that the Psycho twin is just playing a trick on me!
I have two weeks before my life will start to get HECTIC! When life as I really know it starts to take place. SCHOOL! I will have some MAJOR planning to do prior to starting school and the main one is exercise. I am going to have to get up really early to get my workouts in. I don't want to end up back in that old life of not getting up and then being too tired at the end of the day...Oh that's right...I QUIT MAKING EXCUSES AND THAT IS WHAT THAT WOULD BE, RIGHT? RIGHT! Thanks for answering that so quickly for me!
I hope to have something exciting to write about next week. Maybe I will tell you all about the adventures that Jacek and I will take this week...We are going to go to the Lynx game on Tuesday night!
Until Next Time, PEACE OUT!
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Midweek Check In!
Hello! I told myself that I would check in midweek so here I am. I have lost 1.8 of the 2.8 pounds that I gained last week! I have worked out each morning and today went and did a "Fitness North" routine. I went to Victory in Stillwater, Minnesota with Stacey and Steph who both work in the same district as me. We did some spinning, boxing, boxes and good ole' burpees and mountain climbers:) When we were done we headed to down town Stillwater to climb some stairs. We did 3 sets of UP 120 and Down 120....so that is a total of 720 stairs in case you were wondering. That was tough! I was drenched when we finished and out of breath. We then went to some Smoothie joint that Stacey has talked about. I had a Chocolate Peanut Butter Banana Protein Smoothie.....It was really good; but not as good as the ones I make at home! I believe I will be going back to another class next Wednesday morning!
I mentioned in my last blog that I thought there was/is something wrong with my stomach. I did go to the doctor yesterday; she decided to order blood work and I had to give a stool sample...now I told my husband how gross that must be to have to work with someone's poop; he said "they do it all the time it is not a big deal." When I went back to the hospital last night to drop off my stool sample....or course Jason, whom I know, had to be the one working in the lab...made me even more embarrassed! He asked me if I knew what they were checking for...I responded; "I have not idea,." and walked out as soon as I could.
The doctor told me to take some GasX and gave me someother kind of medicine that is typically used for ulcers....I know it is not my bowels and my bowels are not backed up (I don't want to explain how I know this..you can get the picture)....I just have this really weird discomfort in my left upper/middle quadrant of my stomach, and at times it seems to move (NO I AM NOT PREGNANT)....it just feels weird and sometimes hurts a little more! The doctor told me to wait a week and if it is still happening; then I will have a CT scan! We will see.
I hope the scale on Sunday gives me a sense of accomplishment....it gets frustrated when I know I have not cheated and have done the things I have been told to do! We will see. As for the rest of the week....I am heading to Green Bay Friday morning for the weekend and will be back Sunday afternoon!
Until Next Time, PEACE OUT!
I mentioned in my last blog that I thought there was/is something wrong with my stomach. I did go to the doctor yesterday; she decided to order blood work and I had to give a stool sample...now I told my husband how gross that must be to have to work with someone's poop; he said "they do it all the time it is not a big deal." When I went back to the hospital last night to drop off my stool sample....or course Jason, whom I know, had to be the one working in the lab...made me even more embarrassed! He asked me if I knew what they were checking for...I responded; "I have not idea,." and walked out as soon as I could.
The doctor told me to take some GasX and gave me someother kind of medicine that is typically used for ulcers....I know it is not my bowels and my bowels are not backed up (I don't want to explain how I know this..you can get the picture)....I just have this really weird discomfort in my left upper/middle quadrant of my stomach, and at times it seems to move (NO I AM NOT PREGNANT)....it just feels weird and sometimes hurts a little more! The doctor told me to wait a week and if it is still happening; then I will have a CT scan! We will see.
I hope the scale on Sunday gives me a sense of accomplishment....it gets frustrated when I know I have not cheated and have done the things I have been told to do! We will see. As for the rest of the week....I am heading to Green Bay Friday morning for the weekend and will be back Sunday afternoon!
Until Next Time, PEACE OUT!
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Throwing the DAMN scale away!
I really don't know what the hell happened this week. I especially thought I sweated off 10 pounds on Monday alone walking around Menomonie with Stacey SHIP! I guess not....
My bowels have been way out of whack this week and I don't know why for that either! I had some real severe cramping on Monday and Tuesday and since Wednesday I have been sporadic going to the bathroom. This is very unlike me!
Well, even though I am up this week 2.8 pounds; I am going to wake up tomorrow morning and workout and keep on trucking. I am hoping Devil Boy maybe has some insight for me and can get me out of my first slump...Pretty damn early on in the journey to be having a slump if you ask me!
Because I am so frustrated all I want to do is self wallow......and I don't want to do that! I am going to do a midweek check in! No fair to plan for this week or mornings that I have to get up extra early! Time for me. I am going to Green Bay on Friday morning (no I am not going to see the Packers) to a convention; but it will all be ok!
I will keep you posted!
Until Next Time, PEACE OUT!
My bowels have been way out of whack this week and I don't know why for that either! I had some real severe cramping on Monday and Tuesday and since Wednesday I have been sporadic going to the bathroom. This is very unlike me!
Well, even though I am up this week 2.8 pounds; I am going to wake up tomorrow morning and workout and keep on trucking. I am hoping Devil Boy maybe has some insight for me and can get me out of my first slump...Pretty damn early on in the journey to be having a slump if you ask me!
Because I am so frustrated all I want to do is self wallow......and I don't want to do that! I am going to do a midweek check in! No fair to plan for this week or mornings that I have to get up extra early! Time for me. I am going to Green Bay on Friday morning (no I am not going to see the Packers) to a convention; but it will all be ok!
I will keep you posted!
Until Next Time, PEACE OUT!
Sunday, July 17, 2011
The Quote Rings True!
"Failing to Plan is Planning to Fail"
I am not sure who said that; but it is so true! This was my first week at home and being able to fully execute my plan to the max. The results were a little shocking to me: I lost..............................................................................
8 pounds! I am actually so proud of myself! OK....enough of the bragging!
What did I do for the week. My normal morning workout....We went swimming on Monday and my psycho twin came out and was doing flutter kicks and deck jumps! My twin was trying to make my kids do the flutter kicks and they didn't even last a minute! It was beautiful at Wakanda!
On Tuesday we decided to go to Interstate State Park and do some hiking and fishing. We hiked 4 different trails for about 4 miles. It was very breathtaking with the cliffs overlooking the river. Although I got quite paranoid when my kids would walk out on the cliff. I yelled at Jacek and then had to let him know that I am his protector, his mother and I would die if something happens to him. I told him I wouldn't be able to protect him from falling off the cliff because I wouldn't get close enough to it because of my fear. I don't know if that was the Psycho Twin talking or just the freak of his mom:) Ela and Jacek were like; "MAMA, WE'RE FINE!" The family decided to do some swimming. Well we all know that I don't like to swim in lakes because I am afraid of this fish...yes just keep laughing.....It was a good thing I had my book in the car.
Wednesday we shaved the goats and I had a meeting. Thursday we went to take care of goats again and worked on some fair projects. Friday was more working on fair projects. I can't figure out why my kids wait until the last minute to do their things or even actually think about what they are going to make. Jacek changes his mind by the hour! Then my mom reminded me that I was the one who use to wait until the morning of the fair in 90 degree heat with no air and have to bake my items:) Now I understand they get that from me.
This week is going to be another busy week as we have the fair. I am going to PLAN my days so that I stay on track. I will not let anyone or anything get in the way of my journey. My determination is very powerful.
I do have to say that I have not been an active member of a church for my adult life. There is a very long story to it, but the short version is that when my father died when I was 15 I told my mom I would continue to go to church until I was 18 and then I was done! I kept that promise. I was married in a church and both of my children were baptised in the church; but I never really accepted it as home and it was in Menomonie. For quite a few years now I have had the desire to want to go to church; but when I talk to my husband about it, we always end up arguing about the reasoning why...it is not worth the fight. This past year I was feeling really bad in my parenting when I saw something that my daughter wrote to her friend (Ela was 11 years old at the time): that she didn't believe in a God! I couldn't believe it! I was shocked and hurt and felt a betrayal. I have always had a strong belief in God; but not so much of the organized religion! Anyway, I made some conversations and realized that I needed to get my kids to church. I believe they need the exposure and then when they are older they can make their own decisions. We attended Peace in Baldwin. Ela and Jacek went to Sunday school when they got there. This year we are going to go back and I even said I would help volunteer in a Sunday school class. I have not told my husband because I don't want to argue. I am not a member of the church but I will see how it goes. Sorry to bore you with this on my blog; but I thought writing it down would make it more meaningful to myself!
Until Next Time, PEACE OUT!
I am not sure who said that; but it is so true! This was my first week at home and being able to fully execute my plan to the max. The results were a little shocking to me: I lost..............................................................................
8 pounds! I am actually so proud of myself! OK....enough of the bragging!
What did I do for the week. My normal morning workout....We went swimming on Monday and my psycho twin came out and was doing flutter kicks and deck jumps! My twin was trying to make my kids do the flutter kicks and they didn't even last a minute! It was beautiful at Wakanda!
On Tuesday we decided to go to Interstate State Park and do some hiking and fishing. We hiked 4 different trails for about 4 miles. It was very breathtaking with the cliffs overlooking the river. Although I got quite paranoid when my kids would walk out on the cliff. I yelled at Jacek and then had to let him know that I am his protector, his mother and I would die if something happens to him. I told him I wouldn't be able to protect him from falling off the cliff because I wouldn't get close enough to it because of my fear. I don't know if that was the Psycho Twin talking or just the freak of his mom:) Ela and Jacek were like; "MAMA, WE'RE FINE!" The family decided to do some swimming. Well we all know that I don't like to swim in lakes because I am afraid of this fish...yes just keep laughing.....It was a good thing I had my book in the car.
Wednesday we shaved the goats and I had a meeting. Thursday we went to take care of goats again and worked on some fair projects. Friday was more working on fair projects. I can't figure out why my kids wait until the last minute to do their things or even actually think about what they are going to make. Jacek changes his mind by the hour! Then my mom reminded me that I was the one who use to wait until the morning of the fair in 90 degree heat with no air and have to bake my items:) Now I understand they get that from me.
This week is going to be another busy week as we have the fair. I am going to PLAN my days so that I stay on track. I will not let anyone or anything get in the way of my journey. My determination is very powerful.
I do have to say that I have not been an active member of a church for my adult life. There is a very long story to it, but the short version is that when my father died when I was 15 I told my mom I would continue to go to church until I was 18 and then I was done! I kept that promise. I was married in a church and both of my children were baptised in the church; but I never really accepted it as home and it was in Menomonie. For quite a few years now I have had the desire to want to go to church; but when I talk to my husband about it, we always end up arguing about the reasoning why...it is not worth the fight. This past year I was feeling really bad in my parenting when I saw something that my daughter wrote to her friend (Ela was 11 years old at the time): that she didn't believe in a God! I couldn't believe it! I was shocked and hurt and felt a betrayal. I have always had a strong belief in God; but not so much of the organized religion! Anyway, I made some conversations and realized that I needed to get my kids to church. I believe they need the exposure and then when they are older they can make their own decisions. We attended Peace in Baldwin. Ela and Jacek went to Sunday school when they got there. This year we are going to go back and I even said I would help volunteer in a Sunday school class. I have not told my husband because I don't want to argue. I am not a member of the church but I will see how it goes. Sorry to bore you with this on my blog; but I thought writing it down would make it more meaningful to myself!
Until Next Time, PEACE OUT!
Sunday, July 10, 2011
Updated Results!
Drum roll...........................I lost 2.2 pounds this week for a grand total of 24.6 pounds down:) I am very happy with the 2.2; especially since I spent 4 of those days is Chicago! It is truly amazing how much better I feel when I am eating 5 times per day and eating the things that should go into my body. Today is my "cheat" day; and I just keep thinking: "Oh, I don't want to eat anything bad." How wrong is that? Back in my previous life, I would have already had the dessert picked out and planned a loaded carb day! Crap, I probably would have already had the equivalent of my 5 meals in for the day. That is why I don't live in the past!
I just made some sloppy joes for the 4-H picnic, but I don't want that either! I am sure by the end of the day I will have had my cheat meal and I will be much satisfied with it!
I have a house to clean, laundry to do and dogs to start yelling at! I don't understand the obsession my dogs have with the damn squirrels and birds! If I knew where Jacek's BB's were, I think I would have had myself 2 squirrels already today (now wouldn't that be a great cheat meal)! Laugh at that, but as a kid we ate squirrel and it was the worst! Anyway, my two little yipper snappers go crazy outside. I do find it kind of comical to watch the birds and the squirrels go from tree to tree and then sit on top of the fence posts; it's like they are torturing my little dogs!
I am looking forward to spending this week with my husband! He took the week off for vacation and we are going to go on some day trips! HIKING.......I am sooooooo excited! I am sure I will be seeing imaginary figures of Leif and Kelly walking ahead of me and trying to make me go faster:) I am going to just plan on keeping up with my kids!
Unless I have a major melt down or some psychotic episode during the week; I will be back next Sunday with new results!
Until then, PEACE OUT!
I just made some sloppy joes for the 4-H picnic, but I don't want that either! I am sure by the end of the day I will have had my cheat meal and I will be much satisfied with it!
I have a house to clean, laundry to do and dogs to start yelling at! I don't understand the obsession my dogs have with the damn squirrels and birds! If I knew where Jacek's BB's were, I think I would have had myself 2 squirrels already today (now wouldn't that be a great cheat meal)! Laugh at that, but as a kid we ate squirrel and it was the worst! Anyway, my two little yipper snappers go crazy outside. I do find it kind of comical to watch the birds and the squirrels go from tree to tree and then sit on top of the fence posts; it's like they are torturing my little dogs!
I am looking forward to spending this week with my husband! He took the week off for vacation and we are going to go on some day trips! HIKING.......I am sooooooo excited! I am sure I will be seeing imaginary figures of Leif and Kelly walking ahead of me and trying to make me go faster:) I am going to just plan on keeping up with my kids!
Unless I have a major melt down or some psychotic episode during the week; I will be back next Sunday with new results!
Until then, PEACE OUT!
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Temptations Suck!
I know I could make this blog all about everything being hunky dory....but you know what? It isn't! I made a promise to myself to make this as real as I could. The only way to make it real is to be honest and truthful to myself and others; accountability!
While I was in Chicago the temptations were so overwhelming. I believe part of it was not being able to control the time! The best part of my eating was breakfast; that is the ONE meal I did not deviate from, skip or cheat on! The problem came after that. Going to the RA and not knowing when breaks are or being so caught up in the assembly and realizing that it has been 5 hours since I last ate....I would then go into a little panic mode! I did OK while I was gone; but I sure didn't do exactly what I should have been doing!
Two major WOWs for me were: I went to the Corner Bakery to grab a salad and bring back to the room. As I was in line, I grabbed a bag of mini m&m cookies...I put them back~ I turned around and grabbed the bag again and kept saying, "if you want them just eat them"...I put them back and was staring and checking out the raspberry bars, lemon bars, bundt cakes and thought to myself that I would just order one of them...My mind was definitely playing tricks on me and it was becoming quite overwhelming and I hadn't even ordered my salad yet. I also kept thinking that I might as well just order a sandwich with chips, what the hell; I may never get back to this place....WELL......if I let my mind distract me from my goals in life; I will get back to the place that I started and I don't ever want to go back there! I ordered my salad and grabbed a banana....I even threw away the roll that came with the salad:) Although the salad was probably not the healthiest with the dressing...I was OK.
The next wow was yesterday coming home on the bus. I brought my little nephew Filip back with me from Chicago! The bus stopped in Mauston for a break and I was hungry since it was 6:00 p.m. and we ate at 10:00 a.m.! We went to Wendy's! I ordered a salad and he got a chicken nugget meal with a Vanilla Frostie! Not even knowing what the heck I was doing.....I stopped when I realized I was eating his vanilla frostie......I am really not sure what my mind did to trick my BRAIN into feeding my body that? You can call me psycho for feeling this way; but that is how I literally felt. After I realized what I did...I was bummed, angry and frustrated at myself and just wanted to get home!
I am home and sooooooooooooooo happy! I got up this am and went and did my workout....had an awesome breakfast and feel good about being able to be back on track! I know I am still going to have the temptations....but I will not fail!
"Failing to Plan, is Planning to Fail"
Until next time, PEACE OUT!
While I was in Chicago the temptations were so overwhelming. I believe part of it was not being able to control the time! The best part of my eating was breakfast; that is the ONE meal I did not deviate from, skip or cheat on! The problem came after that. Going to the RA and not knowing when breaks are or being so caught up in the assembly and realizing that it has been 5 hours since I last ate....I would then go into a little panic mode! I did OK while I was gone; but I sure didn't do exactly what I should have been doing!
Two major WOWs for me were: I went to the Corner Bakery to grab a salad and bring back to the room. As I was in line, I grabbed a bag of mini m&m cookies...I put them back~ I turned around and grabbed the bag again and kept saying, "if you want them just eat them"...I put them back and was staring and checking out the raspberry bars, lemon bars, bundt cakes and thought to myself that I would just order one of them...My mind was definitely playing tricks on me and it was becoming quite overwhelming and I hadn't even ordered my salad yet. I also kept thinking that I might as well just order a sandwich with chips, what the hell; I may never get back to this place....WELL......if I let my mind distract me from my goals in life; I will get back to the place that I started and I don't ever want to go back there! I ordered my salad and grabbed a banana....I even threw away the roll that came with the salad:) Although the salad was probably not the healthiest with the dressing...I was OK.
The next wow was yesterday coming home on the bus. I brought my little nephew Filip back with me from Chicago! The bus stopped in Mauston for a break and I was hungry since it was 6:00 p.m. and we ate at 10:00 a.m.! We went to Wendy's! I ordered a salad and he got a chicken nugget meal with a Vanilla Frostie! Not even knowing what the heck I was doing.....I stopped when I realized I was eating his vanilla frostie......I am really not sure what my mind did to trick my BRAIN into feeding my body that? You can call me psycho for feeling this way; but that is how I literally felt. After I realized what I did...I was bummed, angry and frustrated at myself and just wanted to get home!
I am home and sooooooooooooooo happy! I got up this am and went and did my workout....had an awesome breakfast and feel good about being able to be back on track! I know I am still going to have the temptations....but I will not fail!
"Failing to Plan, is Planning to Fail"
Until next time, PEACE OUT!
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Hello from the Windy City!
I am in Chicago and after 1 week on my "OWN" I am down 1.6 pounds.....I am extremely happy with this; especially seeing how the last 4 days in Chicago have been very challenging to get all of my nutrients in. I have not had my "5" meals per day yet.
I am not at all worried about getting side tracked or worrying that it will be hard when I get back home... The one thing I am looking forward to on Thursday morning is to eat my eggs!
Just wanted to let you know how I am doing after a week. I will tell you that I AM having a piece of Chicago style pizza tonight:) I just can not wait......
Just went through security and searches from Secret Service as Vice President Biden is coming to talk to the Delegates at the RA today! I was a little disappointed that I didn't get the whole body strip search:)
Until Next Time, PEACE OUT!
I am not at all worried about getting side tracked or worrying that it will be hard when I get back home... The one thing I am looking forward to on Thursday morning is to eat my eggs!
Just wanted to let you know how I am doing after a week. I will tell you that I AM having a piece of Chicago style pizza tonight:) I just can not wait......
Just went through security and searches from Secret Service as Vice President Biden is coming to talk to the Delegates at the RA today! I was a little disappointed that I didn't get the whole body strip search:)
Until Next Time, PEACE OUT!
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